1 00:01:49,531 --> 00:01:51,673 - Dear red shoes, 2 00:01:51,674 --> 00:01:53,851 who'd a thought I'd send my personal diary 3 00:01:53,852 --> 00:01:56,397 to a complete stranger. 4 00:01:56,398 --> 00:01:58,708 But then it's so much easier to be honest with a stranger 5 00:01:58,709 --> 00:01:59,948 isn't it? 6 00:01:59,949 --> 00:02:02,058 And sometimes a stranger can let you 7 00:02:02,059 --> 00:02:04,872 be honest with yourself. 8 00:02:04,873 --> 00:02:07,316 Especially when it comes to relationships. 9 00:02:07,317 --> 00:02:10,867 Relationships that last longer than they should, 10 00:02:10,868 --> 00:02:13,581 like me and my boyfriend Jaime Griffith. 11 00:02:13,582 --> 00:02:15,525 A fashion photographer. 12 00:02:16,998 --> 00:02:20,750 It just seemed that neither of us had the courage to end it. 13 00:02:24,268 --> 00:02:27,013 ♪ I wanna carve my name across your heart 14 00:02:27,014 --> 00:02:29,224 ♪ Let no one else in 15 00:02:29,225 --> 00:02:31,671 ♪ I want you 16 00:02:34,618 --> 00:02:37,031 ♪ I want you 17 00:02:42,189 --> 00:02:44,164 ♪ I wanna wake each morning 18 00:02:44,165 --> 00:02:48,017 ♪ And see the sunlight dancing on your face 19 00:02:48,018 --> 00:02:50,562 ♪ Bring me to your primitive hells 20 00:02:50,563 --> 00:02:54,280 ♪ Let me hand you saving grace 21 00:02:54,281 --> 00:02:56,960 ♪ I wanna play out all your fantasies 22 00:02:56,961 --> 00:03:00,209 ♪ We'll do one by one 23 00:03:00,210 --> 00:03:03,559 ♪ And then we'll lay exhausted in the brilliance 24 00:03:03,560 --> 00:03:06,910 ♪ Of the sun I want you 25 00:03:09,557 --> 00:03:11,230 - You know I've seen the models 26 00:03:11,231 --> 00:03:13,073 I need to see tonight. 27 00:03:15,854 --> 00:03:16,925 What'd I say? 28 00:03:20,644 --> 00:03:24,595 Christ Aliyah, I see a hundred girls a day. 29 00:03:24,596 --> 00:03:26,439 I'm just being honest. 30 00:03:30,392 --> 00:03:33,406 ♪ I want you to dine upon my flesh 31 00:03:33,407 --> 00:03:36,521 ♪ I'll even set a table for you 32 00:03:36,522 --> 00:03:38,799 ♪ An if you still hunger for more 33 00:03:38,800 --> 00:03:42,283 ♪ I'll heat up my soul for two 34 00:03:42,284 --> 00:03:46,804 ♪ When the night time comes along 35 00:03:46,805 --> 00:03:48,514 - We're late Aliyah. 36 00:03:57,826 --> 00:04:00,338 And no one knows where she is. 37 00:04:02,650 --> 00:04:04,861 You think she's hiding under the table? 38 00:04:07,708 --> 00:04:12,029 - Come on why don't you pick on someone your own size? 39 00:04:17,724 --> 00:04:20,302 - Where have you been? 40 00:04:20,303 --> 00:04:22,279 - Was in the john. 41 00:04:22,280 --> 00:04:26,834 You have been sitting in my creation on the toilet? 42 00:04:26,835 --> 00:04:30,485 I wasn't sitting on the toilet in your creation. 43 00:04:30,486 --> 00:04:34,673 Just bending over vomiting up last night's lettuce. 44 00:04:36,750 --> 00:04:38,258 - Maybe this week, 45 00:04:39,464 --> 00:04:40,971 perhaps next week. 46 00:04:46,532 --> 00:04:48,942 You are very beautiful. 47 00:04:48,943 --> 00:04:51,321 But when the beauty's gone, 48 00:04:51,322 --> 00:04:53,598 what will you do? 49 00:04:53,599 --> 00:04:55,342 - Fuck you. 50 00:05:13,396 --> 00:05:15,640 ♪ I want to feel my body glide 51 00:05:15,641 --> 00:05:19,224 ♪ Across the texture of your skin 52 00:05:19,225 --> 00:05:21,368 ♪ I wanna drink your eyes up 53 00:05:21,369 --> 00:05:24,953 ♪ And throw myself in 54 00:05:24,954 --> 00:05:27,665 ♪ I wanna soar to the edge of you 55 00:05:27,666 --> 00:05:30,882 ♪ And do a wild dance on the brim 56 00:05:30,883 --> 00:05:33,997 ♪ I wanna carve my name across your heart 57 00:05:33,998 --> 00:05:36,375 ♪ And let no one else in 58 00:05:36,376 --> 00:05:38,821 ♪ I want you 59 00:05:41,735 --> 00:05:44,148 ♪ I want you 60 00:05:49,373 --> 00:05:51,114 ♪ I wanna wake each morning 61 00:05:51,115 --> 00:05:55,670 ♪ And see the sunlight dancing on your face 62 00:05:55,671 --> 00:05:58,015 ♪ Bring me to your primitive hells 63 00:05:58,016 --> 00:06:01,230 ♪ Let me hand you a saving grace 64 00:06:01,231 --> 00:06:04,178 ♪ I wanna play out all your fantasies 65 00:06:04,179 --> 00:06:07,428 ♪ We'll do them one by one 66 00:06:07,429 --> 00:06:09,705 ♪ And then we'll lay exhausted 67 00:06:09,706 --> 00:06:12,720 ♪ In the brilliance of the sun 68 00:06:12,721 --> 00:06:15,133 ♪ I want you 69 00:06:17,679 --> 00:06:20,090 ♪ I want you 70 00:06:23,876 --> 00:06:26,287 ♪ I want you 71 00:06:30,508 --> 00:06:32,920 ♪ I want you 72 00:06:38,045 --> 00:06:40,490 ♪ I want you to dine upon my flesh 73 00:06:40,491 --> 00:06:43,505 ♪ I'll set a table for you 74 00:06:43,506 --> 00:06:46,352 ♪ And if you still hunger for more 75 00:06:46,353 --> 00:06:48,295 ♪ Soft 76 00:06:50,037 --> 00:06:52,314 ♪ And when the nighttime comes along 77 00:06:52,315 --> 00:06:54,156 ♪ Lay in the sheets 78 00:06:54,157 --> 00:06:55,898 - So who's this photographer? 79 00:06:55,899 --> 00:06:57,774 - Jaime Griffin. 80 00:06:57,775 --> 00:07:01,123 He says I have the best skin he's ever seen. 81 00:07:01,124 --> 00:07:02,631 - Saw him at a Christmas party. 82 00:07:02,632 --> 00:07:04,373 Yeah he's kinda cute actually. 83 00:07:04,374 --> 00:07:05,378 - No kidding. 84 00:07:05,379 --> 00:07:06,751 I would've slept with him even if 85 00:07:06,752 --> 00:07:09,062 he hadn't offered me that lay out. 86 00:07:09,063 --> 00:07:10,804 Are you talking about the one in British Vogue? 87 00:07:10,805 --> 00:07:12,881 - Yeah they're shooting it next month in- 88 00:07:12,882 --> 00:07:13,720 - In Morocco. 89 00:07:13,721 --> 00:07:14,791 - Yeah. 90 00:07:14,792 --> 00:07:16,600 Are you doing it too? 91 00:07:16,601 --> 00:07:18,208 - No, I was though. 92 00:07:20,453 --> 00:07:21,758 - So what happened? 93 00:07:21,759 --> 00:07:24,540 - Nothin' I just changed my mind. 94 00:07:39,680 --> 00:07:41,891 - Where to senorita? 95 00:07:41,892 --> 00:07:45,307 - It's 644 east Morton, it's in the village. 96 00:07:45,308 --> 00:07:47,351 - 644 east Morton, okay. 97 00:07:49,864 --> 00:07:51,906 Morton street huh. 98 00:07:51,907 --> 00:07:53,648 Morton street. 99 00:07:53,649 --> 00:07:54,853 Morton street. 100 00:07:54,854 --> 00:07:56,126 Morton street. 101 00:07:56,127 --> 00:07:58,438 Used to live close to Morton Street. 102 00:07:58,439 --> 00:08:00,716 Morton street oh I used to live- 103 00:08:00,717 --> 00:08:01,655 - Excuse me. 104 00:08:01,656 --> 00:08:02,860 - Morton st- 105 00:08:02,861 --> 00:08:03,732 - Excuse me. 106 00:08:03,732 --> 00:08:04,569 - Yeah. 107 00:08:04,570 --> 00:08:05,774 - Could you stop that? 108 00:08:05,775 --> 00:08:07,549 You're giving me a bad headache. 109 00:08:07,550 --> 00:08:09,894 I have asprin if you like some. 110 00:08:09,895 --> 00:08:10,899 - No. 111 00:08:18,337 --> 00:08:19,977 - My name is Miguel, 112 00:08:19,978 --> 00:08:22,323 Miguel Tirana Jesus Kithara. 113 00:08:23,495 --> 00:08:26,141 I like to watch people in my taxi. 114 00:08:26,142 --> 00:08:30,227 They don't tell me their story, I make one up. 115 00:08:30,228 --> 00:08:33,645 Would you like me to tell you your story? 116 00:08:34,817 --> 00:08:37,430 I think you are a Bulgarian revolutionary 117 00:08:37,431 --> 00:08:41,716 who is havin' a rendezvous with your partner. 118 00:08:41,717 --> 00:08:45,905 Who is also your lover and also your friend from childhood. 119 00:08:47,345 --> 00:08:49,823 And the enemies have arrested your mother 120 00:08:49,824 --> 00:08:51,565 over in Bulgaria. 121 00:08:51,566 --> 00:08:54,379 - Miguel you gotta be on drugs. 122 00:08:54,380 --> 00:08:56,456 You gotta be on some heavy drugs. 123 00:08:56,457 --> 00:08:58,165 - Oh my god, 124 00:09:01,347 --> 00:09:04,763 embrace, I'm floating free on the best drug there is. 125 00:09:04,764 --> 00:09:06,237 I'm high on life. 126 00:09:06,238 --> 00:09:08,849 - No Miguel I can't tell you how happy I am for you. 127 00:09:08,850 --> 00:09:12,334 - When was the last time you were high on life? 128 00:09:12,335 --> 00:09:14,612 When was the last time you were counting to the morn 129 00:09:14,613 --> 00:09:18,296 and say all the little birds, all the little soul, 130 00:09:18,297 --> 00:09:20,138 all the morn in the sky. 131 00:09:20,139 --> 00:09:22,484 - If you haven't noticed Miguel, 132 00:09:22,485 --> 00:09:25,230 most of the birds are dead from pesticide, 133 00:09:25,231 --> 00:09:27,642 and you can see el god damn soul 134 00:09:27,643 --> 00:09:30,490 or senior sky because of the smog. 135 00:09:32,165 --> 00:09:33,773 - That was very funny. 136 00:09:45,631 --> 00:09:46,635 Okay. 137 00:09:47,674 --> 00:09:50,555 Here we are, 644 east Morton street. 138 00:09:55,178 --> 00:09:57,355 I help you with your bags. 139 00:10:13,904 --> 00:10:15,209 - Those friends of yours? 140 00:10:15,210 --> 00:10:16,215 - Sometimes. 141 00:10:26,230 --> 00:10:29,078 You can put the bags over there. 142 00:10:40,802 --> 00:10:41,806 Figures. 143 00:10:43,247 --> 00:10:44,754 - He's not coming? 144 00:10:48,037 --> 00:10:50,650 - None of your business really. 145 00:10:52,560 --> 00:10:55,104 - You're so beautiful you know? 146 00:10:55,105 --> 00:10:56,713 - I get paid to be. 147 00:10:58,522 --> 00:11:00,664 - Beauty like yours is like, 148 00:11:00,665 --> 00:11:04,282 a gift from the gods, I cannot wonder. 149 00:11:04,283 --> 00:11:06,058 - No, it's no wonder. 150 00:11:08,940 --> 00:11:12,455 Just a few chromosomes that came together. 151 00:11:12,456 --> 00:11:13,460 That's it. 152 00:11:14,969 --> 00:11:17,447 - You hate what you do do you? 153 00:11:17,448 --> 00:11:20,596 - Are you asking or telling? 154 00:11:20,597 --> 00:11:22,505 - So why you do it? 155 00:11:22,506 --> 00:11:23,846 - For the money. 156 00:11:26,727 --> 00:11:28,803 - That makes you a whore. 157 00:11:30,344 --> 00:11:32,789 - It's funny you should say that. 158 00:11:32,790 --> 00:11:36,507 Cause I'm finally realizing that's all I really am. 159 00:11:36,508 --> 00:11:38,451 Just a glorified whore. 160 00:11:40,260 --> 00:11:43,474 It's not too bad to be a whore. 161 00:11:43,475 --> 00:11:46,590 You wanna know what it feels like to be a whore? 162 00:11:46,591 --> 00:11:49,805 And knowin' at the age of 20? 163 00:11:49,806 --> 00:11:52,016 I'm just 20 years old. 164 00:11:52,017 --> 00:11:53,860 And I'm all washed up. 165 00:11:55,334 --> 00:11:58,046 Do you wanna know what that feels like? 166 00:11:58,047 --> 00:11:59,051 - Okay. 167 00:11:59,855 --> 00:12:02,201 - You really wanna know huh? 168 00:12:05,215 --> 00:12:07,325 This is 1000 dollars. 169 00:12:07,326 --> 00:12:10,139 This says your ass is mine. 170 00:12:10,140 --> 00:12:11,445 - 1000? 171 00:12:11,446 --> 00:12:13,723 - That's the armature rate. 172 00:12:13,724 --> 00:12:15,967 - You are underestimating me. 173 00:12:15,968 --> 00:12:19,485 - Shut up, get up and take your shirt off. 174 00:12:31,176 --> 00:12:34,694 Thought I told you to take your shirt off. 175 00:12:35,564 --> 00:12:36,568 - Okay. 176 00:12:50,571 --> 00:12:52,781 - That's not so bad. 177 00:12:52,782 --> 00:12:54,824 Not as bad as I thought. 178 00:12:54,825 --> 00:12:57,203 But those nipples are awfully small. 179 00:12:57,204 --> 00:12:58,911 - What's wrong my nipples? 180 00:12:58,912 --> 00:12:59,917 - Too small. 181 00:13:01,256 --> 00:13:04,706 - No woman has ever complained about my nipples. 182 00:13:04,707 --> 00:13:05,879 - Turn around. 183 00:13:09,932 --> 00:13:12,110 Soft nice hair, nice back. 184 00:13:13,886 --> 00:13:17,435 You know bigger, firmer, higher butts are in now. 185 00:13:17,436 --> 00:13:19,210 What are you doin'? 186 00:13:19,211 --> 00:13:20,953 I wanna see you move. 187 00:13:27,116 --> 00:13:28,993 Alright get up and stretch, come on. 188 00:13:34,050 --> 00:13:35,123 Come to me. 189 00:13:37,267 --> 00:13:38,439 Smile, come on. 190 00:13:42,458 --> 00:13:43,698 Ooh man go, go. 191 00:13:55,356 --> 00:13:56,360 And turn. 192 00:14:06,308 --> 00:14:08,118 Get outside, get out the window. 193 00:14:09,859 --> 00:14:11,535 Now lean back and down. 194 00:14:27,982 --> 00:14:29,657 Go go go come on. 195 00:14:36,959 --> 00:14:39,370 Get up against the wall like this. 196 00:14:39,371 --> 00:14:40,778 Watch me. 197 00:14:47,176 --> 00:14:48,749 Alright here we go 198 00:14:48,750 --> 00:14:49,754 and down, 199 00:14:51,162 --> 00:14:52,166 up, 200 00:14:53,138 --> 00:14:55,651 give me, show me that butt, alright. 201 00:14:58,063 --> 00:14:59,168 On the couch. 202 00:15:30,153 --> 00:15:31,157 It's great. 203 00:15:36,015 --> 00:15:39,030 Wait right here, I'll be right back. 204 00:15:44,490 --> 00:15:45,931 Stay right there. 205 00:15:53,735 --> 00:15:56,615 Excuse me, I have a little proposition for you. 206 00:15:56,616 --> 00:15:59,999 Seems to be a guy upstairs I'd like you to meet. 207 00:16:00,000 --> 00:16:01,975 20 for you, 20 for you. 208 00:16:01,976 --> 00:16:03,315 Wanna follow me? 209 00:16:03,316 --> 00:16:04,320 - Sure. 210 00:16:35,976 --> 00:16:38,554 So our friend here wants to know what it feels like 211 00:16:38,555 --> 00:16:39,995 to be a whore. 212 00:16:39,996 --> 00:16:41,067 Female whore. 213 00:17:03,544 --> 00:17:04,784 - Female whore. 214 00:17:05,789 --> 00:17:07,698 - I think we can manage that. 215 00:17:12,254 --> 00:17:13,427 - Be my guest. 216 00:17:14,632 --> 00:17:16,542 - Do I get paid for it? 217 00:17:18,719 --> 00:17:22,672 ♪ You feel the fire inside you 218 00:17:24,983 --> 00:17:27,496 ♪ Let it show 219 00:17:31,716 --> 00:17:35,903 ♪ When it gets too hot let 'em know 220 00:17:38,449 --> 00:17:41,631 ♪ Let it go let it go 221 00:17:46,153 --> 00:17:49,905 ♪ Time will wait for no one 222 00:17:52,920 --> 00:17:55,700 ♪ No no no no no 223 00:17:59,485 --> 00:18:03,673 ♪ When you feel the fire within you 224 00:18:06,854 --> 00:18:09,367 ♪ Let it show 225 00:18:14,023 --> 00:18:16,971 ♪ Life is a candle 226 00:18:20,421 --> 00:18:23,336 ♪ Love is the glow 227 00:18:27,489 --> 00:18:31,107 ♪ When you fire inside you 228 00:18:34,255 --> 00:18:35,328 ♪ Let it show 229 00:18:48,559 --> 00:18:52,747 ♪ When you feel the flood within you 230 00:18:55,125 --> 00:18:57,637 ♪ Let it flow 231 00:19:01,858 --> 00:19:06,045 ♪ When it feels to hard to hold back 232 00:19:09,093 --> 00:19:12,342 ♪ You better let it go 233 00:19:15,860 --> 00:19:19,712 ♪ The moment comes and passes 234 00:19:22,224 --> 00:19:25,072 ♪ Before you know 235 00:19:28,890 --> 00:19:33,077 ♪ When you feel the flood within you 236 00:19:37,164 --> 00:19:39,677 ♪ Let it flow 237 00:19:43,897 --> 00:19:46,978 ♪ Life is a fountain 238 00:19:49,726 --> 00:19:52,674 ♪ Love is the flow 239 00:20:11,935 --> 00:20:14,345 ♪ I want to feel my body glide 240 00:20:14,346 --> 00:20:18,398 ♪ Across the texture of your skin 241 00:20:18,399 --> 00:20:20,342 ♪ I wanna drink your eyes open 242 00:20:20,343 --> 00:20:23,658 ♪ An throw myself in 243 00:20:23,659 --> 00:20:26,706 ♪ I wanna soar to the edge of you 244 00:20:26,707 --> 00:20:29,587 ♪ And do a wild dance on the brim 245 00:20:29,588 --> 00:20:32,534 ♪ I wanna carve my name across your heart 246 00:20:32,535 --> 00:20:35,013 ♪ And let no one else in 247 00:20:35,014 --> 00:20:37,427 ♪ I want you 248 00:20:40,307 --> 00:20:42,719 ♪ I want you 249 00:20:47,978 --> 00:20:49,719 ♪ I wanna wake each morning 250 00:20:49,720 --> 00:20:53,470 ♪ And see the sunlight dancing on your face 251 00:20:53,471 --> 00:20:56,317 ♪ Bring me to your primitive hells 252 00:20:56,318 --> 00:20:59,768 ♪ Let me hand you saving grace 253 00:20:59,769 --> 00:21:02,883 ♪ I wanna play out all your fantasies 254 00:21:02,884 --> 00:21:06,065 ♪ We'll do them one by one 255 00:21:06,066 --> 00:21:08,210 ♪ And then we'd lay exhausted 256 00:21:08,211 --> 00:21:11,157 ♪ In the brilliance of the sun 257 00:21:11,158 --> 00:21:13,570 ♪ I want you 258 00:21:16,417 --> 00:21:18,829 ♪ I want you 259 00:21:22,380 --> 00:21:24,792 ♪ I want you 260 00:21:28,811 --> 00:21:31,491 ♪ Oh I want you 261 00:21:36,382 --> 00:21:38,524 ♪ I want you to dine upon my flesh 262 00:21:38,525 --> 00:21:42,042 ♪ I'll set a table for you 263 00:21:42,043 --> 00:21:44,889 ♪ And if you still hunger for more 264 00:21:44,890 --> 00:21:48,373 ♪ I'll heat up my soul for two 265 00:21:48,374 --> 00:21:50,517 ♪ When the night time comes along 266 00:21:50,518 --> 00:21:54,537 ♪ I'll lay you in sheets of song 267 00:21:54,538 --> 00:21:57,685 ♪ And I'll whisper whisper whisper 268 00:21:57,686 --> 00:22:00,099 ♪ I want you 269 00:22:05,324 --> 00:22:07,735 ♪ I want you 270 00:22:10,349 --> 00:22:12,760 ♪ I want you 271 00:22:16,679 --> 00:22:19,125 ♪ I want you 272 00:22:22,575 --> 00:22:23,681 ♪ Just you 273 00:23:11,549 --> 00:23:13,960 ♪ I want you 274 00:23:17,008 --> 00:23:19,018 ♪ Still 275 00:23:20,559 --> 00:23:23,204 ♪ Want 276 00:23:23,205 --> 00:23:25,047 ♪ You 277 00:23:38,179 --> 00:23:40,524 - Somethin' the way you see. 278 00:23:42,869 --> 00:23:44,979 Come on, what do you see? 279 00:23:48,664 --> 00:23:50,272 Do you see a whore? 280 00:23:52,014 --> 00:23:53,018 - No. 281 00:23:54,626 --> 00:23:55,630 No. 282 00:23:58,009 --> 00:24:00,019 I just see a taxi driver 283 00:24:01,928 --> 00:24:04,810 with makeup smeared all over his face. 284 00:26:20,541 --> 00:26:21,545 - Miguel. 285 00:27:12,899 --> 00:27:15,209 - I'm still modeling from time to time. 286 00:27:15,210 --> 00:27:18,056 But there is something inside that doesn't grow old or ugly. 287 00:27:18,057 --> 00:27:21,372 A bird of extraordinary light. 288 00:27:21,373 --> 00:27:25,291 Every once in a while we need to be reminded of that. 289 00:27:25,292 --> 00:27:27,001 And Miguel, 321